This anon's advice is pretty good >>9401203
I struggled alot with my anxiety and depression and spent years thinking I didn't deserve my boyfriend and friends, and that they were just with me out of pity. My underlying thoughts to everything were always that I was the biggest problem in my own life and that I shouldn't even put effort into anything because I would just mess it up.
After therapy I still get these thoughts and feelings, but I'm able to take a step back, examine them, and not let them get in the way of my life. I'll never stop having them but my quality of life before compared to now is like night and day.
It took me a few sessions to really get into it but starting therapy is one of the best things I ever did for myself. I don't ever think I'll be a well-adjusted, social person. But I can enjoy what I do now.