>this artsy friend that I have a big dumb crush on has expressed his serious mutual attraction to me
I'm so fucking jaded, gulls... I believe people are only interested in what they consider "novel" because it is novel, and then only until the novelty wears off. Then it's just weird again, and they don't adore the creativity that initially drew them to you in the first place anymore, now it just makes them feel self conscious, and instead they want you to "tone it down" and then your friends and instead coworkers are like, "are you depressed, you seem less 'you' lately" and so you go back to that single salarywoman life. Every time. The grapes are all sour. I think I'll just stay friends with this one, it'll last longer.