>>100138367parents and teachers served themselves a narrative that traditional means of raising and educating kids was becoming obsolete. they were afraid to keep kids from immersing themselves in internet & social media because it was assumed they'd have to mesh with those technologies to keep up with the exponential changes they would unleash. Same thing is happening again with AI. They'll have prompting classes for 5th graders within 3yrs.
The shortsight was that, as probably predicted by someone, social media is not social, and fact checking your dad from your phone is not intelligence.
Social media retarded your social development, and the fire hose of information managed you fill your head with a lot of stimulating pig feed and bite-sized chunks that make you sound like an adult brain, but your ability to prioritize, seek out, assimilate, and retain information that makes you useful to others (you're of no use to yourself until you are of use to others), is underdeveloped.
>I hatr myself. I'm afraid of failing> I can not do anything right.go jump in some cold water and get a grip. what you need to do is to DO. ANYTHING. You cannot learn any skills without producing, and in the beginner you will be producing garbage. And that garbage will take a lot of time to produce.
Get away from electronics. and if you want to build with electronics or software, do so without the internet. Find physical books, guides, and documentation and give yourself days to do the most basic things. Do not consult videos. wrestle with a problem before asking for help.
you're going to have to fail many times. the only way to avoid it is to do nothing, and this is not an option. If you fail with gracefully, honestly and take responsibility the bruises to your ego (which is keeping you where you are at) will not bother you so much. Learning from these failures and rectifying them is the foundation of self confidence.
you are not alone in being unprepared. all is not lost.