>>79451798>i don't care that much what your beliefs are.. will you forgive me?
No offense taken, really.
In terms of my beliefs, it's complicated. I have a great share of right-wing sympathies, but I don't really like belonging to any group. I like controversial ideas, and no group exists on the furthest fringe than National Socialists, White Nationalists and Fascists. That said, can solutions to complex world problems be reached through them? I'm pessimistic, so I doubt it. As one of my pals once said, "Apolitical is good. Anti-political is better."
I was into a rapper called RBX who'd constantly reference Islam, so I googled his lyrics just to see if others saw meaning in them. Little would turn up, but one day, I googled a the track where he says, "That's why he eats his pig-steak rare" which led me to a Neo-Nazi website noting the hypocrisy of popular culture's fetishization of Black Nationalism. I wasn't aware lots of black rappers who talked about Islam were, in fact, referring to some Black Nationalist bastardization of the Quran, but regardless, I started to critically think in that moment. Since the '80s, Black anger was only peripherally rooted in a desire for justice or equality; they merely wanted revenge on enemies, perceived and otherwise.
Even though I felt racism was wrong, I couldn't help but feel the racists were onto something, so I wanted to hear their side of the story. Predictably, the web was littered with sites demonizing skinheads for their wanton racism and street thuggery, but I eventually found my way onto WN sites with plenty of articles to peruse. Interest turned to intrigue with "white power music." I found my way onto a lengthy list of free mp3s. Most of them were of an abysmal quality, but a few grabbed me. From that point on, I wanted more and more, and since then, I've never stopped searching.